In 2009 I was at a bit of a crossroads in my spiritual life. Although I had been raised in a Christian household, I found myself more and more diverted from that faith as I got older. I had always felt that the world was too complex and beautiful to have happened by accident, but I had a hard time reconciling most of the “rules” around traditional faiths that I had learned of.
At some point within that year, I sat down and started writing about what maybe I did believe and what bothered me the most about what typical people refer to as “God”. I had always felt that there was this sort of universal balance that existed among everyone and wondered if I could find my own way of explaining how it felt to me. But beyond the sense of balance, I always felt that my instinct was the truest force behind all of the good things that had happened to me. The more time I thought about it, the more I realized that maybe this instinct I was following was the voice of “God” or the “Universe” or whatever speaking to me.
Ultimately I wrote down several chapters about what I had been thinking and eventually had enough content that I thought maybe it would be something I could put into a book for my own personal use. I also thought since I had always thought about writing a book that maybe I could use this as an opportunity to learn more about self-publishing and all of the things that go along with it.
I put together the book through Lulu and had a handful of copies printed for myself and any of my friends to read. It was listed on Lulu and Amazon for a short period of time but was never really meant to be public facing. I wasn’t trying to tell anyone else how to believe in God or that they were wrong. I really just wanted to find my own voice to keep myself sane.
This book is not for sale online or in your local bookstore. If you’re interested in either a digital or paperback copy, please reach out to me.